What I feared from the beginning is finally slowly creeping in even though you disagreed. I don’t understand why I would even be upset with it when I knew it would happen from the beginning. It was bound to happen eventually, and yet, I gave myself hopes because you gave me hopes. Even though we have not reached that stage yet, I don’t think I want to go there. Sometimes I feel so stupid for thinking a certain way or feeling a certain way when I should have no reason to feel like that at all. I overthink and overfeel certain emotions, and that can never be good. I just want to feel okay. At ease.